moody day- once in a blue moon

i feel so sad and emo today... feel like rejected by people. the feeling of not getting known by friends. not accepted and been ignored. this feeling is terrible. not good at all. my mood can go up and down very drastic and i do not know how to maintain the good mood of it. i can be so hyperactive and then so down at one point which i do not like it. i cant control it.

what have i done to deserve this treatment and this attitude? yea, sometimes, i might treat you bad and i do not realise it. but i really feel down about this. i feel like most of the time when i was down is because of U! why u impact me so much?

last monday we learnt about the story of Ruth and Boaz. find favour. so hard to be Boaz to someone. totally extinct d this kind of person. only God can do it. i find it so hard to have favour on someone and even when we are begging or pleasing them, it turn out to be one side love. the other person does not have favour upon you and dun even want to bother you. that's hurt. really hurt..

Dear God, help me to be who i am. Your precious daughter. maybe what i want to be is not according to Your will but let me not to be distracted by someone who is not worth it.

*desperate to get rid of the negative emotion right now*

:'(

real love and some blah blah

i read an article that said, real love is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person.
hmm, sound true.
is not just a spontaneous feeling, it is a deliberate choice, a plan to love each other for better or for worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health. :)
(you don't choose who you're attracted to, but you definitely choose who you fall in love with and (more importantly) who you stay in love with.)

Real love asks us to do hard things--to forgive one another, to support each other's dreams, to comfort in times of grief, or to care for family. Real love isn't easy--and it's nothing like the wedding day--but it's far more meaningful and wonderful.

and this wonderful quote: "No one falls in love by choice, it is by chance. No one stays in love by chance, it is by work. And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by choice."

If you truly love someone (and they truly love you), commit to that love and plan on it being hard work.

haha okay basically, most of these words and phrases i got from the article which sound so right. 

btw, i just had a picnic with the gang at batu ferringhi just now. 8am journey and the weather was nice. thank God for a wonderful day. quite busy these few days preparing for exam. now, mid term exam ended but have one individual oral presentation going on next week. had been memorising and revising and need to prepare slide for that. so basically, i had no time to blog much. so happen that i found some nice words and that why i drop by awhile to blah blah haha. 

btw, i taking my sweet time watching back autumn in my heart again. so nice and so sweet to see the two lovely couple again. 

maybe next time when i free, i will update those pictures and other adventure i been to. :)

buhbyee for now.